I do not wish to be associated with the name Rye no longer.I felt like this was needed of me to say since I did infact just steal the name "Rye" from a youtuber named "Ryeyumi" and I do not want my shit connected to theirs since they are just some innocent youtuber.Now the main point is that I want to be left alone.No matter what, I'm not trying to fuck up for the 2nd time. I've already done it the first time and apologized for it multiple times and I feel like I just need to stop it.I'm a proship recovery, I don't do it anymore. Stop thinking I do when I don't.As for the NSFW, I don't do that anymore EITHER. It could have put me in danger with adults and I'm mostly glad that I did it in a private server full of minors and an optional NSFW channel viewing.Now, what even CAUSED this in me?My stubbornness and how traumatized I am.I was exposed to porn at a young age, even before I was suppose to be on the internet which made me extremely horny and it stuck with me I suppose.December, 2021.I was 13 and I wanted to raid a cringe server so I did. I stayed longer since the other raiders were pretty nice, and it was kinda dead there.My worst mistake yet.I ended up getting exposed to nazi shit which had me in my racist nazi arc which is no longer happening.Then came the gore exposure.And then came the more traumatizing parts.TW: CP, ZOOPHILIA, AND RAPEI was later on exposed to a video of a guy raping an infant child, a real fucking child.I was traumatized from that, I didn't know how to feel.And then soon enough later, I was sent a rape video by one of the members. I thought it was a cute kitty video but I was wrong, it was a video of a girl getting raped.The last thing that happened was someone saying to search "Dogmovie.net". I was a curious one so I did search it and found videos of people fucking dogs.And then I just decided to get out of there, I'm pretty sure my alt on my phone (which i no longer have) is still there though.I felt like the influence of how I was treated and how the members were stayed onto me which made me like this.But I don't wanna be like this anymore.But I keep getting associated with it, every single time.I'm trying to recover and you just need to give me the time I need. There will be an improvement from me and bullshit I've been doing is gonna be over finally.My only request is to be left alone and be able to recover in peace.There will be seen improvements from me.Thank you for everyone who stayed by me during this and helped me get a bit better so far.-Kai